One month ago today Lily was born. A whole month ago! Time is going by so fast this time around. Before we know it both girls will be asking to borrow the car. So what’s been happening for the month? Sleeping, feeding, sleeping etc. Little Lily likes to be cuddled all the time… which is perfectly fine, but also makes everything else quite hard to do, and Amelia has been needing tonnes of extra attention which is pretty understandable but exhausting all round. Big-P has been working really hard, battling off illness (we’ve all had another round of wintry colds) and also getting up at night to change nappies and be a hero. I think I have written one email in the entire month and luckily I had a whole bunch of Kiddley articles written and ready to publish before June 18th otherwise that would have been seriously neglected too.

I had an email from someone this morning telling me how sad it was that Loobylu had been abandoned in favour of Kiddley — which is just not true (and kind of hurtful). There’s only so many minutes in a day (or in a month, really) and most of them are filled with important things like mothering. I am sorry if anyone else has been feeling mad thinking that I have been busy updating kiddley and leaving loobylu for dust. It just isn’t so. If I could have written a month’s worth of Loobylu articles in early June too and date stamped them to automatically publish here I would have. Actually I probably could have. They all would have read “fed the baby every three hours again today. Amelia watched 7 hours of television and I managed to get a shower in before 12 noon. A good day (relatively)!”.

I have been doing a lot of contemplating of how excellent it would be if I could do tasks by telekinesis – because while I sat feeding instead of flipping mindlessly through magazines I could get everything else done that is piling up around us. But life is beginning to settle down and a gentle routine is coming back again, and I am starting to feel human again after the operation – so perhaps I can stop and breath a little. Lily is lovely. Amelia is also lovely and being a loving big sister. We are doing quite well I think. Although life is full to the seams, it is somehow much easier this time. I don’t feel like I have let a bomb off in my brain – we did all the adapting last time. There are absolutely no regrets! I haven’t once contemplated spontaneously running away down the street and jumping on a bus to Chadstone (and beyond, the world) when I go out to put nappies in the trash. I remember feeling that way many, many times in 2002 and I was expecting to again. But no! Such a relief!